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Pissed off, that is officially how I am feeling.

I let it slide at first and now after some thinking . . . . . . I am still pissed off. Maybe even more.

So I checked my MYSPACE page today and noticed I had a new comment on one of my pics. It was from a friend that I haven’t heard from in a LONG ASS TIME. But as I read it I became sad and angered at the same time. To have a friend who you haven’t heard from in about a year and a half, someone who you took into your home when they were in need of shelter, someone who you opened your house too cause of a wrong that they committed and you STILL looked passed it, someone who you have tried to contact many a times and nothing in return and this how I am treated?

It just makes me wonder why I open my heart to others . . . am I always going to be treated with the disrespect with the caring I give out? What’s the point? I don’t need it. I have my friends who care for me and I try to keep you as a friend and you only say things that make me want you further from me! I guess it’s gonna have to be that way. I don’t need someone in my life that can’t appreciate everything I did for them and just use and give nothing in return.

I do have to thank you though, you have opened my eyes. I won’t ever let it happen again.

(Story inspired by this here photo, all the names have been taken from actual Sororities and Frats. I don’t care about the innocent.)

Oh my GOD, we had so much fun last night! I swear I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO wasted.

So Jeff calls me and tells me that Taylor and him are on their way over and gonna pick me up and try and cheer me up. See, I am going through a rough time right now. My girlfriend, well now my ex, just left me this last week. I swear I was so ready to pin her with my fraternity pin but FUCK THAT ! She sends me this email saying, wait………….let me post some of the email. Here it is:

Dear Chad,

I have been doing a lot of thinking in between studying for Geology 101 and my Women’s studies class and I am thinking that it’s just not right. I mean it’s totally awesome that you are in the fraternity that is brothers with my sorority but that just isn’t enough with me. Melissa was telling me to write out Pros and Cons and I totally thought it was a great idea and so I did. Guess what, we have way more Cons than Pros and I think that says a lot. I mean I totally still want to hang out with you and laugh just like we used to but I don’t think we can do any of the other “stuff”. I mean it was great and all those rumors about the “size of it” are totally not true, I sooooooooo have your back on that one. Well, I know this is a lot to handle right now so I will let you digest it and call me sometime soon. Bye sweetie.

xoxo,

Kelsy

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? What the FUCK!? I mean how can there be more Cons than Pros, we are both in the GREEK SYSTEM !!! That has to count for something, right?!

Anyways, the boys come over and tell me that we are going out with Jamie and Allissa and that Allissa has been asking about me. All right, I am starting to cheer up but my heart is still torn from Kelsy, but I can get over it for tonight. Maybe Allissa and I will hit it off and hook up or something and then . . . maybe.

So I put on my best polo, pop the collar and throw the “Bed Head” in the hair and 45 minutes later I am so ready to get it on and rip it up with the guys.

We get to the bar and as soon as I walk through the front door I am in full on “A Game” mode. We meet the girls and have some drinks and just do the good old shoot the shit routine. You know the whole “How are things at the Alpha Phi house?” and “How are things at the Sigma Chi palace?” After awhile, more like five beers later, Allissa asks me to dance. She grabs my hand and drags me to the dance floor with that “Come get me” look, so I did. I totally brought my dance moves out and showed her WHAT. WAS. UP!

So the next thing I remember after we all left was waking up the next morning in my bed with Allissa next to me and man did I have a shit-eating grin on my face. HA HA HA HA In your face KELSY! But I am still not sure how to deal with the whole Allissa situation now. She wants to go out again, but just the two of us. I mean she is great and all but I think she might be just a bit to easy. Kelsy at least waited one week before she gave it up to me, but I will just play this one by ear.

As I sit and flip through the channels on this wonderful day off I stumbled upon an AMC High School movie-fest. The remote was laid to rest when I noticed they were playing The Breakfast Club and Sixteen Candles back to back. What did I do right to deserve the pleasure of having my T.V. screen blessed for the next 4 hours (minus commercials) with images of Molly Ringwald? I don’t know but I am going to have to do some research and find out.

While watching The Breakfast Club I start to notice things that I have never really seen in that movie before. The social commentary of high school life in the 80’s and how it didn’t really change it just evolved into the life that most of us knew in our high schools. The same groups were always there: Jocks, Preps (i.e. Rich kids and Yuppies), Brainiacs, Outcasts (Tree-Frogs as they were known at my school) and of course the Uncategorized. All five of these kids are represented in this film and they play their parts as if they were going for an Oscar.

I wish I would have had a day like them. One Saturday, detention and nothing else. They all learned so much from each other and ABOUT each other. The main point was that no matter what group you were they all had their own “issues” and they were no different that the others. But the friends that they had and knew was what determined how they acted towards each other and durning that one day of detention those walls were stripped away and they were all naked and bare.

If I could have been part of a group like that I wonder what the next Monday of school would have been like. Would we all have forgotten what was said and what we had accomplished? Would we forget the words that were spoken and bonds that were made? Sad thing is I will never know. With that one day we could have changed the world, or at least the world we knew at our school. Everyone getting along and no one caring what group you hung out with. No boundaries.

A man can dream right?

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