“I need to stop emailing people when I’m wasted. I mean, everyone goes to bed, I pour myself ONE more screwdriver and then email people. That’s when I get into trouble. I mean much to my chagrin I get emails back and they are like “You don’t sound like yourself.” I never email them back.”
Archive for May, 2006
From the depths of Scotty’s Boca!
Tuesday, May 30th, 2006The Suffering
Sunday, May 28th, 2006So I bet all of you wonder where the “F” J.O. has been? Well, do not fear. I am still here. I am just going through some serious shit that I woudln’t wish on even my worst enemy.
You know when you have to look at yourself in the mirror in the morning and you just stand there and all those questions go through your head? The ones where you test yourself to the fullest? Well, I am actually having to deal with them. It’s that time in your life where you face your worst fears, you battle all those inner demons and when you truly find out what your drive is. Your spark for life, what makes you tick. The time when you need to experience life to the fullest. Those times when you are tested and you know it in your heart, body and soul that you are going to find out some HUGE information that could forever change your life. Yeah, that’s where I am.
However, do not fear. This is seriously not some “emo” entry that is here to make you all ask “J.O., are you okay?” I am okay but I am just going through “The Fold” and making my way out.
What you will see on the other side will be a version of me that is going to be beautiful. It’s going to be somethig breathtaking. A vision of a human being becoming what he is meant to become.
Gambit is my favorite X-men. I want his powers.
Where’s J.O. ?
Thursday, May 18th, 2006Okay everyone I am still here. Do not worry, your fearless blogger hero is still alive and kickin . . . . sort of. I am having the busiest week of my adult life and man I just want it to be over. The other thing is I have some amazing people in my life too right now. They are the ones that make me smile, laugh and tell me to get ahold of myself.
Now I do have things to say, blogs to blog and funny little witty comments to make your sides burst with laughter but right now I can’t. Soon enough though. Let me come outta this hell of a week safely and then you will all be pleased.
J.O., OUT.
The Blog Slate is Empty
Thursday, May 11th, 2006So this might just be the most pointless blog I think I have ever left, minus the one about completly NOTHING at all! I think my mind has run out of ideas so I am just going to blog about Lucas and him leaving.
So one of my best friends, Lucas, is leaving in less than a week for Montana and is going to be working at Glacier National Monument. As Denise would say “Lucky.” Yes, he is lucky. All of that hiking, rafting, camping and then of course the work thing but that’s overrated. He is going to be in God’s country and living it up to the fullest.
But with this move there is a shift that is going to happen with in the group that so many of us know as…..The Boys. I am going to be moving into his room at Scotty’s house and thus be back on my own, sort of. But with this shift in The Boys I wonder what it’s going to be like.
I am going to miss him but I know how much he needs and wants this. So I can’t put my needs and wants in front. I have to swallow them down and wish him the best and just keep in touch.
The funny thing is I know that no matter what happens with The Boys, we will always stay in touch and be friends.
I will miss you Luka but I am gonna try and make the trip to see you this summer. I.T.M.
You gonna get home safe?
Saturday, May 6th, 2006so tonight was interesting. shit i can’t spell. fuck it. there was this girl brenda that should not have driven home. i told her “no!” but she went past J.O. so she went home, not sure if she made it home okay but i gave my two cents. that’s how we roll. check out the audioblog. the link is up there. click it. UH!!!