Hey, I have a blog. I should write in it.
I will. I am sorry that I haven’t written in awhile but things have been…well, hectic. I am not going to go to deep into what is going on but it’s not fun. Life has it’s ways of throwing little tests and lessons your way and you have to learn from them. The thing with these “tests” is what it ACTUALLY tests. Your will power, breaking point, faith, drive and your overall spirit.
Denise however is always there. Showering me with love and helping to restore my faith and conviction. Replenishing my well and just being there. This is why I love her. Humans find things out when they are being tested and with her I have seen her true love and passion she has for me and our relationship. I see it on a daily basis but in these times you find yourself having your eyes opened wider to it and it just flows in. Being soaked and showered in affection and love is one of the greatest things in the world. It’s probably equal to the love God.
I was reading some of Rob Bell’s “Velvet Elvis” lately and it has been helping me. His way of “rediscovering” faith is something that has become close to me. I want that. I want to feel fresh and new and to just be able to everyday look at the world and smile and thank “I Am” for what he has made and given to me.
However in the world the way it is for me right now that is one of my tests.
Can I pass it?
Will it consume and conquer me?
I doubt the last one but for the first one I am still trying to find that out.
I want to raise a family and have kids and just come home to a house that is full of love and joy. I think with Denise there with me by my side and God at my back that anything is possible. We just have to understand that the road we are suppose to follow isn’t always easy and that we are going to have tough times but with those tough times comes that love. Closeness. Affection. Breakdowns. Tears. Hugs. Loss of sleep. Late nights. Laughter. Sadness. And all the while the tunnel may be dark and tough but there is always some light at the end and we just have to keep pushing forward. Moving ahead. Learning. Striving.
Pushing on with that partner. Denise. She is my partner.
We are here for each other.
To pick the other up when they are down.
To shower the other with love.